Ola again :)
I wanna tell you about the Christmasparty from my association and a little bit about my thoughts.
First, let's start with December 19th. The big Christmasparty from my Kung Fu Association. I remembered that our coach told us to be there at 4pm so i took the train and i arrived there at 15:30. Bambi and i went to the gym and nobody was there but Torsten. Torsten is one of the coaches, but we dont really know him. He trains the one who are in our association for more than 2 years. So we helped him with decorating the whole gym. Glitter here, some candles there. It looked AWESOME! And there was chinese music as backgroudn music. We laughed so hard about this :D After that my other coaches arrived and it began. The liondance was the first and everyone was fascinated about how nice and great the lion walked around. After the liondance we had a 20-minute break to change our clothes and to repeat our form. Bambi and i were SO excited. Maybe you can imagine.. There have been more than 50 people and we never did the form in front of spectators.. only our coaches. And we were the first! So we went out and did the form as well as we could. And.. what should i say? We did it great. There was no mistake and we were absolutely synchron. After our form some of the others did their forms, with weapons or without. Finally we ate some tasty food and talked to out coaches and some of the other people. At 7pm we moved to Bambis home, cause we were so tired.
Alright. Thats most of what i wanted to tell you about my Association.
My Christmas Day with my family was awesome and i enjoyed it a lot. But my oldest brother always tries to tell me that i'm dumb, that i'm silly, that i'm weak. Especially on those days. I know, he likes me a lot but this really annoys me. And the way he talks about my hobbys or what i'm listening to. I think he doesn't really know much about me. And at this day i lay in my bed and i thought about how people are thinking about me. I don't really know what they think of me, but they don't see me as the person i really am. I always try to show them WHO i am but i think they don't get it. I'm not just that crazy girl who listens to Linkin Park & Slipknot and stuff like that. I'm nut just that girl who does some strange sports. I'm not just that girl who is interested in politics, who is interested in what people around me are feeling. I'm much more than this. But this is the only thing that people see. But i guess that everybody thinks this. Nobody knows each other really good. I think the person who knows most about me and who really knows who i am is Bambi. And that is because she is almost similar. It doesn't matter how long you know somebody. For example: I know Jule for almost 10 years now and we experienced a lot together. And I know Bambi for 3, almost 4 years. And whenever Jule says: "I know how you're feeling, I know it." I'm just thinking: "No. You have no fucking clue." But Bambi knows how i'm feeling. Sure, people sometimes experience the same, they feel almost similar things in different situations. But they never feel the same. And that's what forms the character of the people. There are no two persons who have the same character. But there are two persons who have the same feelings, the same thoughts.. they are very very similar. And i believe in the thing that some people call "soulmates". Some people do not. But how do you explain to me, that Bambi knows alot more about my feelings and my thoughts than Jule does?
It's a hard topic, cause it's hard to explain what i mean, but i hope you understood.
In my opinion everybody needs a soulmate to become lucky. A soulmate just KNOWS how you're feeling. A soulmate feels the same. A soulmate is someone who knows who you really are. And i think Bambi IS my soulmate. So now, ask yourself. Is there a soulmate?
