Are you calling me darling?

Ola again :)

I wanna tell you about the Christmasparty from my association and a little bit about my thoughts.

First, let's start with December 19th. The big Christmasparty from my Kung Fu Association. I remembered that our coach told us to be there at 4pm so i took the train and i arrived there at 15:30. Bambi and i went to the gym and nobody was there but Torsten. Torsten is one of the coaches, but we dont really know him. He trains the one who are in our association for more than 2 years. So we helped him with decorating the whole gym. Glitter here, some candles there. It looked AWESOME! And there was chinese music as backgroudn music. We laughed so hard about this :D After that my other coaches arrived and it began. The liondance was the first and everyone was fascinated about how nice and great the lion walked around. After the liondance we had a 20-minute break to change our clothes and to repeat our form. Bambi and i were SO excited. Maybe you can imagine.. There have been more than 50 people and we never did the form in front of spectators.. only our coaches. And we were the first! So we went out and did the form as well as we could. And.. what should i say? We did it great. There was no mistake and we were absolutely synchron. After our form some of the others did their forms, with weapons or without. Finally we ate some tasty food and talked to out coaches and some of the other people. At 7pm we moved to Bambis home, cause we were so tired.

Alright. Thats most of what i wanted to tell you about my Association.

My Christmas Day with my family was awesome and i enjoyed it a lot. But my oldest brother always tries to tell me that i'm dumb, that i'm silly, that i'm weak. Especially on those days. I know, he likes me a lot but this really annoys me. And the way he talks about my hobbys or what i'm listening to. I think he doesn't really know much about me. And at this day i lay in my bed and i thought about how people are thinking about me. I don't really know what they think of me, but they don't see me as the person i really am. I always try to show them WHO i am but i think they don't get it. I'm not just that crazy girl who listens to Linkin Park & Slipknot and stuff like that. I'm nut just that girl who does some strange sports. I'm not just that girl who is interested in politics, who is interested in what people around me are feeling. I'm much more than this. But this is the only thing that people see. But i guess that everybody thinks this. Nobody knows each other really good. I think the person who knows most about me and who really knows who i am is Bambi. And that is because she is almost similar. It doesn't matter how long you know somebody. For example: I know Jule for almost 10 years now and we experienced a lot together. And I know Bambi for 3, almost 4 years. And whenever Jule says: "I know how you're feeling, I know it." I'm just thinking: "No. You have no fucking clue." But Bambi knows how i'm feeling. Sure, people sometimes experience the same, they feel almost similar things in different situations. But they never feel the same. And that's what forms the character of the people. There are no two persons who have the same character. But there are two persons who have the same feelings, the same thoughts.. they are very very similar. And i believe in the thing that some people call "soulmates". Some people do not. But how do you explain to me, that Bambi knows alot more about my feelings and my thoughts than Jule does?

It's a hard topic, cause it's hard to explain what i mean, but i hope you understood.

In my opinion everybody needs a soulmate to become lucky. A soulmate just KNOWS how you're feeling. A soulmate feels the same. A soulmate is someone who knows who you really are. And i think Bambi IS my soulmate. So now, ask yourself. Is there a soulmate?

The ting tings - That's not my name

I am the "who" when you call "who's there?"

Maybe you noticed it, maybe you don't even care - my last blog is long ago. So i decided to write about my boring life again. :D On December 1st it was my grandmom's birthday. So we went to a nice restaurant and ate the best meal i have ever eaten. After that my mum, my brother and me talked about how we have been as children. I laughed almost the whole time. She talked about how fat i was ( yes.. i was a big fat baby :D), about how often my brother fell into every hole.. It was very funny ;) We drove home at 22 pm ^-^ The week after this was boring, full of school and exams. I had to learn so much, you can't imagine. I just can remember that i watched "nightmare before christmas" and " corpse bride" from Tim Burton (Maybe you know him) with Bambi. We learned the lyrics from "This is Halloween" cause we fell in love with this song :'D Dunno what else to tell you about this week. Practise was hard, but we're practising for big X-Mas Party.. :D It'll be AMAZING. Have you ever seen Lions dancing? Have you ever seen 10 people playing Cymbals? And this drum *-* You're dreaming.. I swear! And when the lion comes closer you are scared of him, cause he's so biig.. :o But i can hardly wait for next Saturday.. Aww. Have to tell you about last Saturday. My parents have been in Bavaria for 4 days. Bambi and I came home from practise and i noticed that the PC from my brother wasn't off. So i looked at it and read the conversations with his friends.. After reading i knew that he planned a party at our house! o; So Bambi and I put our things in my room and they came home. We all partied until 3 am (don't forget.. we partied with 18 year old boys & 16 year old girls *feels young*) My brothers girlfriend is soo nice, she talked to me the whole time. And one of her friends was totally drunk. She jumped around like an ape and told us the craziest things. But after all it was funny. My brothers friends are all very crazy and funny, so it's easy being crazy with them :P We all danced around our house and sang the craziest songs :) On the "dancefloor" (we took some chairs away) we played air guitar :D And a boy always looked at me and Bambi and a while after it he asked us if we would do this more often o.o XD After they all went home Bambi and I went to bed. I mean, it was 3am o; But we haven't slept much. We woke up at 9am.. then we cleaned our house, because my parents were away and they shouldn't notice that we made a party. But my mum noticed it. She said " I smell beer.." But i SWEAR i didn't smell beer anymore. But whatever. Nothing has been broken or something like that so she had no reason to be angry. :) This week will be boring too. 2 exams and much tests *sighs* Whatever.

That's it for now.

[Thanks for reading]

you can always sell any dream to me.

I start with Monday. Maybe you know that my school plans a trip to Southern Tirol. For everyone from class 9 to 13. So my friends and i were very interested and we told our teacher that we wanted to go to Tirol. Because so many ppl wanted to travel to Tirol the teachers chose 50 ppl. Me and my friend were one of them. So we were very happy and we talked about what we would do when we arrived.. I told my mum that my teacher wants me and my friend to go with them and she was very happy, because my last vacation in another country was france... when i was 4. So she said "Yes, we'll pay for you!" At wednesday we met our teachers to talk about what we need, cause we wanted to ski 5 days. When i heard what we need i thought about the money. 300€ for the trip, ca. 100€ for my shoes, jackets & trousers [Winter / Snow jackets..] and 50€ "Pocket Money". Although i knew that my parents couldn't pay for this all i said "Yes, sure i'll come with you." So i came home and showed my parents the things i wrote down. So my dad told me he couldn't pay for all this. He told me that he has to visit Prag because of his work. I can't visit Tirol because of this. So I was very disappointed. My friends are having fun at Tirol and i'm at school. NICE! But i said to myself: "No. Your Dad has almost NO vacation. He works hard for you and your brothers. Let him go to Prag and don't play the disappointed one." So i told one of the teachers that i couldn't travel with them with tears in my eyes. I hate money! But one of my friends hasn't slept the whole night because she thought about the trip. She wants to do a year abroad and her dad wants her to decide what she wants more. The classtrip to tirol or 3 Months in Australia. She decided the 3 months in Australia. So i'm going to stay with her in school.. I'm interested in what she's going to do in Australia. She told me from when to when she's in Australia. From ca. 20. July to the beginning of September. I suddenly squeeked. "WHAT? You're in Australia when i turn 16?" BUH! This sucks. She's my almost best friend and she's in Australia when i turn 16, she's in Australia when i turn 16, she's in Australia when i turn 16. I know her for almost 10 years.. and she always told me "I'll organize your 16th birthday, honey!" So this Thursday is a motherfucker!
Maybe something that will make you [ and me] smile :) In January i have my exam in Kung Fu. For the yellow belt! :D Me and Bambi are soo excited but i have to train a lot cause i don't know all of the forms i should know ;) So what?! I can do this!

Jessie paint your pictures 'bout how it's gonna be.
By now I should know better, your dreams are never free.
But tell me all about our little trailer by the sea;
Jessie you can always sell any dream to me.
Oh, Jessie, you can always sell any dream to me.

.. but we are young.

Nice week. I dunno where to start. School was very fun cause we didn't have as much lessons as we usually have :') At monday i had no school because of the "pedagogically days" in my school. So Monday was a me-time day :) And tuesday.. mhh.. I came to school and in the first lesson a friend told me that a guy in my class has the swine flu.. i thought he was kidding me but now i know that this guy was really infected o.o So we talked a lot about this flu and we all were scared, cause so many people died. mhh..the big Latin exam :P We wrote 2 lessons.. with an other class :) Wasn't easy but i won't get an F :P I hope so.. :D At the evening i went to practise.. we trained hard cause we will show our form at the christmasparty.. so we tried to be synchron but.. it didn't work the first times :D So you see.. we have to train hard until christmas :P so when i came home everything hurted.. but i had to run to the train :P The train i have to take is the last one.. so i ran and ran and ran.. then i arrived at the station and went into the train. 5 seconds later it drove out of the station :P then i came home and i still had to do my homework & i had to take a shower and i couldn't find a towel and my shampoo disappeared.. so it was total chaotic :P At this night i didn't sleep because my whole body hurted.. but at wednesday i felt like a newborn baby.. and i dunno why :P This was the first night i found my lamp at the first try :P Wednesday was the typical schoolday.. so nothing to tell you :P But in the evening my friends and i went to the cinema to watch "LOL". It's a movie filmed in France :P But i really love this film and i just thought the whole time: "Please movie, don't stop, don't stop!" :P It's really funny and tells about the problems from teenagers with their parents :P And when i came home i wanted to put my earring on.. but my earlobe piercing has been accrued o__o So i took a hot needle and then i stinged the piercing again o; This hurted much :P But it worked! :D And today was a crazy day.. My lessons had been SO BORING :I I hate Thursday.. cause i usually have 9 lessons :P But today & tomorrow is the "Parent Conference Day" :P Nooo, my mum hasn't been on a Parent Conference since i was 12 :P And i'm glad about it! At the lessons a friend and i talked about year abroad.. She's very interested in visiting Australia :P So we talked about the climate, the animals, the people and then we talked about how much this would cost. Our teacher told us it would cost more than 10 thousand euro for one year.. An half year "just" 5 thousand.. and your grades must be good enough :P So the money is my poblem.. I'd visit China.. but i don't speak chinese & i have not enough money :P So i'll stay in Germany :)

U should listen to: Supergrass - Alright ; Jean-Philippe Verdin - Lola ; Jean-Philippe Verdin - Little Sister
From the movie: LOL :P

That's it for now.

i'm rusted from the rain..

Alright. Yesterday was a great day. I designed my room new and now it looks.. big & great. My Dad helped me a lot so it was done after 2 hours. We had to push my 2 biig [i mean REALLY big] wardrobes to the other side of the room. My mum told us the whole time that we should put the things out of the wardrobes, but we didn't do this. Why should we? We're strong enough... But when we first tried to push the wardrobe it didn't move :D But after all everything is where i want it to be :P In the evening [22pm or something like that] i watched Final Destination. And everyone who ever watched this film knows, that it's a nightmare. I couldn't sleep the half night and when i fell asleep i dreamed of this film. And i woke up sweating. It was really scary cause i didn't find my lamp, because it wasn't where i expected it. So I groped along the wall and i thought the whole time: oh my god there's a ghost or a murder or something baaaad.. And then I found my lamp .. it was where i put it the day before and i could have killed my self for having soo much fear just because i watched Final Destination! :D
Then i had breakfast with my family and my oldest brother said something about emos. He always says that i am an emo. This sucks! He said: Yes, Franzi will become an emo.. look at her nails!
Just because my nails were black?! Look at her hair! It was a little mess.. U know mum.. i bet she wants a piercing!
And then my mum began to tell us about how bad piercings are and that nobody gets a job who has a piercing and she'll never allow me to have one and blaaa.. So I went upstairs because i hate it when my family talks this way. But sometimes i really hate my brother. You have to know that his girlfriend was there too. He acts always like this when she's there. But she doesn't laugh about the jokes he makes about me. That's why i like her :)
Good Charlotte - Lifestyles ; Billy Talent - Rusted from the rain
That's it for now.

i don't care about what you say..

It's November. Maybe the right month to change something in my life. The last weeks were hard. School isn't as easy as i expected. There are much projects and tests. Sometimes i'm at school until 16:30. I planned so much the last weeks, but nothing really happened. I promised myself that i have to change something, but nothing happened. So now is the time. My Dad told me to work harder, cause i was very.. well i was VERY lazy. So now i try hard to don't disapoint him. Today my coach told me and my best friend that we can show what we've learned. At the Christmasparty from our association! I'm so excited cause this is what we dreamed of. He told us that we're good and we shouldn't hide. I feel like flying on clouds. I practise Kung Fu for 7 months and this will be the first time we show other people what we've learned. Maybe you can't understand what this sport means to me, but it's the greatest experience i've ever made. My coaches are the funniest and nicest people you can imagine. So maybe school's hard, but i always [!] look forward to Kung Fu. I can say that my life is much better than it was before.. maybe it's Bambis fault [my best friend].
Does anybody know if Linkin Park is playing at Rock am Ring 2010?
My parents say i'm too young for being at Rock am Ring, but i wanna be there. It was my dream since i was 10. Love this festival and i live near Nürnburg.. so i wanna be THERE! Bambi & her brother would come with me but her mum don't allow her to go there too. FUCK! :) But it's okay, so i wait one year. Or two.
There's another thing i'm not allowed to do. I want Snakebites, you know? Those piercings at the lips. I really want them cause they look awesome at me. And what are my parents doing? "NO. You're too young and with a piercing you won't get a job!" And i was like WTF? Sure i can get a job with piercings.. Sometimes i wish my parents wouldn't be this.. borgeouis[?] don't know the right word :P i mean a piercing isn't the end of the world... is it?
Slipknot - Snap ; Fall Out Boy - I don't care
That's it for now.
Just wanted to say: Bambi? I LOVE YOU :'D